Missing Out
Most of my days are spend learning for my new job. It’s an endless sea of videos and lessons to learn. Short quizzes at the end of the lesson, and then move on to the next lesson. I have a set of curriculums to go by, around 10 full pages of lessons. Checking each box and marking it off the list as I go along.
Although I am learning a lot, it can get a bit tedious and hard to concentrate sometimes. I try and break up the monotony by getting up and walking around, getting a snack, stretches, do a quick chore, whatever I feel like doing. I’m not trying to finish too quickly. The faster I go, the less I learn.
It feels the same as when I was in school. Missing out on events and time spent with my kids. I started volunteering for a children’s clinic once a week, working with children in recreational activities. It’s a lot of fun seeing these kids have fun. Everyone is very nice and enjoyable to be around. The program is good for the parents too. I started volunteering to meet more people here since I don’t really know anyone here, and to help the kids to have fun. Kind of reminds me of what I had to go through after my brain explosion. That’s why I want to give back to this community.
Interference
The volunteering is every Wednesday evening. The same night as my son’s baseball games. I should be able to show up for my son’s games late. I miss out on most of the game. This is just something I felt I needed to do. Have more experiences and give something back. The dilemma I faced was my volunteering interfering with my son’s baseball games. There’s no need for me to go to every one of his games. If I was just going to a bar every Wednesday, that would be a different story.
I also joined a veterans group of submariners. The first meeting was last weekend and I had a lot of fun. It’s a nationwide club with bases in many cities. I have never belonged to an organization like this. It’s out of my comfort zone and not typical of me to join a club like this. Again, I wanted to meet more people and this organization does a lot of work in the community. This doesn’t interfere too much with my work or my kids though.
Making Time
In my last post I talked about making more time with my daughter. Last night we watched the ‘House of Dragon’ show together and had dinner at the coffee table. Wasn’t much of a dinner, just turnovers and then ice cream. But it was nice spending time with her. We haven’t done that in a long time. I’ve been missing out on a lot.
I don’t really have to make too much time with my son. When he gets home from school, we do his homework and then he sits next to me at his little table while I work. We all have dinner together every night. We go to his baseball practices and games together. When my girlfriend comes for the weekend, we all go to his games and have family time.
Enjoyment
I do find a little time for myself sometimes. I’ll do a chore, or just relax. My work is actually something I enjoy right now. After I’m done with my training, the hard work will continue, but I think I’ll be good at it. I’ve never done sales before. Talking to people is what I’m good at, no matter where I am or what I’m doing, I always talk to people.
It is a little intimidating and frightening to start working on commissions. I am missing out on things to do the job as best I can, learning as much as I can to make me good at what I do. This job does offer a good work/life balance, once I get going of course. The only person who will shape my future is me.
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