Respite

It’s been a week since I left my job, and I don’t regret my decision at all. My bank account might, but I don’t. The first few days were mostly days of relaxation and recuperation. It also took a few days to get back into my normal routine. I spent a ton of money at the grocery store to restock the shelves. My daughter didn’t exactly buy groceries for a family. She told me she spent about $80 on food. I laughed while I spent $450 at the grocery store. No respite for the bank account.

I spent time with my childrens and my girlfriend. We didn’t do anything major over the weekend except for my daughter’s birthday. She’s not a teenager anymore and in college. Apparently I’m supposed to feel upset that my daughter isn’t a teenager anymore and feel nostalgic about that, according to her. It does feel weird that my daughter is 20 years old. Luckily, I’m not a grandpa yet.

I think the reason why I don’t feel too nostalgic or anything else is because I don’t remember much of her life, or mine for that matter. When I look back at the last 20 years, I remember pain and anguish and everything I have been through. I did everything I could to see my daughter as often as I could, but all I have are pictures and not very many actual memories. That’s a very difficult thing to live with.

My Time Off

It’s another week until I start my insurance career, October 1st. Well, I start the training. More learning and studying. Since I graduated, I’ve enjoyed not having to study, that was my job. I will admit that I have been lazy and enjoyed having more time for other things like being lazy. I have been writing a lot here on my blog and writing more articles for publication. Hope to have another article published soon. It’s a different feeling studying for a career so I have a different mindset going into it. I only want to be good at what I do and the training will help me do that. Like everything else I do, I will do my best.

During these couple weeks, I haven’t done much around the house. Chores need to be done like cleaning my garage, the backyard, weeds, all of the fun stuff. I keep putting stuff off until tomorrow. Procrastination at its best. The other job zapped a lot of energy from me and I’m having trouble getting it back. Not that I had a lot of energy prior to the job. I sit here at my computer looking out my window to my backyard and it’s a constant reminder of what I need to do, but I don’t have the want to do it. It can be done next week, I will say that next week too probably.

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